New Inspiration

I know I am only 3 blog post in to my current blog but I am super excited about it. I love writing. I LOVE the feel of tapping the keys on the key board and seeing my thoughts turn into something of substance, but that is not what really inspired me to get back in to the blogging world. I have finally found some inspiration that I have been searching for. So, I am going to use my blog as a tool to help my inspiration come to life. I have wanted to write a book for as long as I can remember. I just never could decide on a topic. I would have ideas but never any direction or any idea on how to expound on those ideas. Do to the recent life changing events that moved me from single life to family life my inspiration was born. As I study, research, and talk with people I hope that this will turn into a book to help other people on their way.

 For those who don’t know me or my story let me give you a brief history. I grew up in a great home with amazing parents and sister. We were church goers and good citizens in our quiet little north Louisiana town. I had everything I needed and most of what I wanted, but life was not always easy for me. I struggled with depression and insecurity from an early age. Over years of this struggle, a divorce, and death of a friend I found myself in a broken place with no hope. I spent about 5 years living a life of chaos, full of bad decisions and self-destructive behavior. I stood on the brink of death and begged it to draw me in until I had an encounter with a Jesus that I had never known before. That encounter was 8 years ago and my life has never been the same.

After that life change I set my eyes on learning how to be a whole person. I wanted to know who I was, what was my purpose, and how to be happy and healthy. Over a 7-year period I learned a lot. I learned how to manage anxiety and depression. I learned how to take care of myself. I set goals, had dreams, and got excited about the future. I learned how to be alone (and I learned I liked being alone). I learned who I was and that I liked me. I become pretty good at knowing how to take care of myself, and considered it a huge life accomplishment. I loved where life had brought me and was making plans for the future. Until life introduced me to these 2 guys that I just couldn’t imagine my life without and I gave up my single life (and dreams) to become a wife and a (bonus) mom. (Someday I will share this story, because it is a good one) And my world was forever changed.

I have officially been a wife and mom for a little over 6 months and I love it but somedays it is hard. It is a momentous change to share your time and to be responsible to people, not to mention the laundry (I mean really does the laundry ever stop?). One of the hardest things for me to adjust to is my self-care routine. When it was just me it was easy to do what I needed. It was easy to be in a quiet place for some good alone time. I could hop in my car at any time for a drive or go on a little walk.  The bubble baths and reading time was in plenty. I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Things have changed now. I don’t get to have long hours of silence because my family needs to talk to me. I can’t take an hour bubble bath because it is a school night and other people need the hot water. And boiled noodles and a jar of tomato sauce don’t make a spaghetti worthy of calling dinner (not to mention no one wants to eat just that for a week). So figuring out how to take care of myself so that I can be 100% for my family has been my struggle, until it became my inspiration.

Now this is where the blogging comes in. I am on a journey to find out how to take care of myself and my family at the same time. I am going to read books, ask questions, and observe how others do it. I am going to try new things. I will struggle along the way and overcome each failure. I will share that journey with you. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Somewhere down the road I have a dream that this journey blossoms into something bigger than this little blog. I hope you follow along and I hope you share with me your experiences and ideas. It should be a fun ride.